I’ve been a Christian for around 16 years. No, I don’t remember the exact moment. Sometimes I wish I could, but alas, I cannot. Ever since I’ve been a Christian I’ve always felt like I needed to get ready for Church.
By church, I mean going to the gathering on Sunday morning to worship God, learn, and fellowship. Not as in the fact that we are all the church. It’s a funny concept, since I’ve always gone to a “come as you are” church. Why do I need to get ready? What am I getting ready for? Am I getting ready to impress the other people there? Does God really need, or want for that matter, me to be looking better than I really am? Does He really care?
It makes more sense when I’m leading something in church. I need to be prepared to lead worship, or preach, or teach the kids/youth. But if I’m just a bump on the log, who am I kidding and who am I trying to impress? Is there something deep down wrong with me for “getting ready,” or is it just normal and acceptable? Am I an idolater? Am I putting the other people’s opinions ahead of my relationship with Christ? Do I need to look “good” for these people? I mean, can’t I wear my Mickey Mouse shirt and beat up jeans? I wear a hat everywhere else, does God really care if I wear it in that building?
Am I ready for church? Is church ready to accept me?